I am a bit late, but it's better late than never right? Let me first say that I have the best husband ever. He will probably never read this, but I want everyone else to know that I KNOW how lucky I am. This is a little bit about Coasts birth...The week before Fathers Day I started nesting...and I MEAN nesting. I don't think I have ever been so tired but soooo full of energy at the same time. Jason and I spent 3.5 days straight (Well he went to work as well but after lol) cleaning the house from top to bottom. I was 36 weeks 3 days when this started. I knew I was getting close to having him, but I had already had a little nesting earlier around 32-33 weeks so it really didn't faze me at all. Around 36 weeks 6 days when I was cleaning, Minnie (Our Morkie) started acting REALLY weird around me...she stopped coming around me at all. She would almost hide from me. I couldn't understand why. Well 36 weeks 7 days (This was a friday; most would say 37 weeks but that's not how the Doctor had it..lol) in the evening I started feeling like I was getting the flu. I actually rode the bike home from my inlaws because I didn't want to interrupt my husband and Ember's time over there (they were watching Ghost Busters...which by the way I have never actually watched...lol)...I laid in bed and started to feel awful but didn't think much of it. Saturday I woke up feeling pretty crampy and my back hurt pretty good. I just felt overall...well...like I was a miserable pregnant beached whale.
Saturday was a big day, Shantel my sister had planned this big party for the girls since their birthdays are so close. I was exhausted and honestly as much as I tried to look forward to it, I was struggling. (btw it was a blast...I just felt horrible lol) I had to push through a lot of the uncomfortable feeling...even my dad noticed I wasn't feeling very well. I would have to go inside and just sit because I kept feeling crampy and my back was really hurting. The party got over and we came home and needed to start cooking for a BBQ because we were having some friends over. I felt pretty okay by about that time, but still just not myself. That evening I really started feeling it. Jason and I started to time the contractions and they were about 5-6 minutes apart and lasted for about 40-50 seconds...he thought we should go in, but I just didn't feel like it was time so I told him I was going to take a bath...which made me feel a little better. OH BTW...earlier in the day Jason decided that we needed to put the bags by the door along with the carseat...I told him we weren't going in anytime soon so why make the mess...people come in right there??? lol Well I finally fell asleep after taking the bath...
Sunday rolls around HAPPY FATHER'S DAY....I felt it...I was feeling quite a bit of pressure to the point that sitting for too long wasn't working...so we stayed home. My inlaws actually took Ember to church for us. We invited them over for breakfast (yes we used the grill again and then again for dinner that night lol) and then again for a BBQ that evening...we thought, "Why not? We have the stuff... lol" I pushed through Sunday pretty much hoping that no one would notice the pain and pressure I was feeling lol...(btw that morning I actually put the bags back in the room and the carseat back in the baby's room so that it would look clean...I DID NOT SPEND ALL THAT TIME CLEANING FOR IT TO BE MESSY AGAIN hahaha)...Sunday night rolls around...I was contracting pretty good and my back felt like it was on fire and like someone was taking all my muscles and everything and twisting them...yeah it was awful. We started timing them again....3-5 minutes and lasted for a little over 1 minute...yeah it was tolerable, but I wasn't loving it. Jason got up and put the bags in the car...I was laughing because I was thinking there is no way this baby is coming this early...it's just not happening (37.1 days). Well...I finally decided that for both of us we should go in....we would just feel better about it.... well about 11:00-11:30 we text Jason's mom about coming over and "camping out" with Ember for a little while... she agreed and her and the girls came right over. (I told them don't worry, we will be back lol....yeah we will....) We left and got to the hospital a little after midnight...the doors were closed over by the side you walk into for L&D....I didn't know my way around there so I didn't realize there was a stinking button...soooo we walked back which wasn't very far but for me it felt like miles at that point. (do you know how hard it is to be totally smiling during this? yeah....um...no LOL...however I think I pulled through pretty well).
We went around to the emergency door and just explained that I needed to get to L&D....like now..."is this an emergency she asks?" um...no not really but I need someone to get me there please.....(FREAKING PLEASE lol). A guy walks us up there...I have a contraction while we are walking...yeah he was walking fast..I was like "Jas', I gotta stop for a minute haha...." we finally get up to L&D and by about this time my contractions are starting to get to me...they hook me up...oh and did I mention I told them I wanted to keep my top stuff on because it's just too much work putting it all back on if we go home...because I was planning on it? yeah....I kept them on. So they hook me up and yup...my contractions are pretty dang regular...they decide to check me...I'm thinking "Meh....it's gonna be the same as my apt last week 1cm dilated...."...well they checked me...which by the way was during a contraction..HOLY CRAP...PLEASE NEVER AGAIN....that was some bad stuff right there....I was 3.5 cm dilated and 80% effaced. I thought, "okay so I am not close we can go home. They told me to walk around for a while and they would check again in about 30-45 minutes. I agreed and got my sandals on. I paced those halls for what seemed like FOREVER...each contractions getting stronger and me getting that much more shaky...grabbing onto Jason during the especially awesome ones is probably what kept me from falling down. I had to joke and tell Jason after a really strong one that it just stole 5 years of my life it was so bad. I remember looking down am my hand after one really bad one and my knuckles were white and hands were red from squeezing so hard.
We go back to the room and they check me. 4.5 cm and 90% effaced...yeah I wasn't going home....this was around 1:30-2:00 ish. I got to the room for the delivery and might I say by this time I was ready to give a few choice words, but still tried to make jokes about it....They said I could have the epidural..I was like HALLE-FREAKING-LUJAH...aaand then I had to wait. I had to wait for them to take my blood and check my platelet counts because they were plummeting towards the end there. This felt like hours. They got my results...I WAS OKAY TO GET IT...YAY!!!! So I told them..."WHY NOT? Let do it!" They say okay he is about 20 minutes away....I can wait that long...well 20 minutes passed....haha...yeah not there...30 minutes...still not there..."WHERE IS HE?"
He finally gets there...this is where it gets good. Jason was my support through all of this. He was holding my hand while the nurse held me so I could get this thing in me and feel amazing again...the guy was like, put your chin to your chest....(I didn't know this, but Jason did this too...you aren't suppose to do that.) Well he asked if I was feeling anything uncomfortable...."um...no the burning down my right hip and leg feels awesome!"....I told him...yeah the pressure and burning down right hurts...well Jason all of a sudden is letting my hand go....I am holding on to it tight thinking...."This is it honey..don't bail!" he goes and sits down and the nurse asks if "dad" is okay...he goes "Or sorts". He starts to lay down and then all of a sudden I see his body just go down on the ground. He hits his head and face on a few things... they wake him up which was just seconds later...I started laughing...the nurse thinks I am crying...nope I was laughing..she goes "it's okay honey, he's okay"....I follow with "I am not crying, that's hilarious...." yeah she started laughing and telling him that she wasn't laughing at him but at me because I was laughing...I was like whatever...you know you are laughing at him... (poor anesthesiologist was probably like "woman I can't get this in when you are doing this!) After a while we had everyone laughing...basically Jason and I were there for comic relief that early morning.
FINALLY I am starting to feel better...I couldn't sleep. I thought I would from feeling so much better but I honestly couldn't sleep. time kept going. I just waited...they checked me again and I was 100& and a 7!!! WOAH...I was close! So we waited and they just let me labor down to minimize any real devastation down there (you ladies know where). With Ember I had 2 episiotomies and still tore 3rd degree...I did NOT want that again. Well they come in a couple hours later...I am stuck at a 7....great....ugh....so she says, "well baby is handling the laboring down really well so we will just keep going" This is where my epidural starts to wear off...on one side...and partially in my back...I guess the dang thing works with gravity? Yeah I was feeling it...I thought I was going to break the dang rail off the bed. I tried not to be too loud, but I actually started crying about this point because wow...that pain is unbearable! I pushed that green button for more and waited...nothing...I did it again when that beautiful green button showed up....NOTHING...I pushed it 3 times.....nothing...I finally told the nurse...it's not working...she checks me and I am STILL A FREAKING 7....she says, "lets turn you because I think that's the problem...it might help with the epidural working on the one side as well" soooo I was put on my left side. IT WORKED! it worked a little too well oops...I was so numb I couldn't even feel the pressure...double oops....a few minutes later she checks me and goes, "you are ready!" ( I was like, "WHAT?" now I feeling a little anxious lol)...so Jason gets up from sleeping (or maybe just laying idk...but he was covered up from head to toe...so I hope he was sleeping a little)....well Coast started to get a little stressed so we started pushing...I pushed and pushed and pushed...Coast would start to get there and everyone would see him, but when I would stop to take a breather, he would go back up....he did this several times...I was starting to get exhausted. This is when Dr. Dyer comes into the picture...he notices that Coast is actually transverse....yeah...had my birth canal not been so narrow I might have been able to deliver him that way with not problems. We continued to push and push...at this point I was on oxygen. I hated that stupid thing...I HATE things in my face and so they ended up just holding it in front of it...which still was causing some major anxiety might I say. I pushed and pushed for over an hour. At this point Coast's little hear rate started dropping and then would eventually come back up....this was scarring everyone and that's when lots of people started coming into the room. Everyone was telling me to push as hard as I can...(I thought that's what I had been doing!)...I continued to push and push, he would get SOOOO close but then would just get sucked back up there. I remember at this point just looking up at the ceiling at the lights thinking, "This isn't happening...I don't think I can make it...I feel so weak...can I be done?" (I guess Jason thought I was going to pass out...I could see the concerned looked in his face and it didn't help that Coast's heart rate was dropping) This happened several times...I couldn't believe I was still pushing over an hour later...Jason finally told them they needed to him out because I was done....they decided to give me an episiotomy and vacuum him out during my last push in the set. (note had I not been small they couldn't have got gotten the suction cup in without cutting me...so sad!) FINALLY during one last hard set of pushing he was out...They told me to open my eyes but I was concentrated on pushing so hard I couldn't. HE WAS OUT...they put him on me and I remember being so out of it and weak I had to tell Jason I couldn't hold him without help because I might drop him.... 8lbs 7oz and 21" long at 37 weeks and 2 days (June 22, 2015...RUTH'S BIRTHDAY TOO!) ....I sure know how to grow em' but it's the getting them out of me without disasters happening that really is tough. Poor kid because of his gestational age and being so big, he had to be poked several times for his glucose levels which btw were just fine (if you ask me, I think the due date was wrong hahaha). While pushing I remember the nurse asking me if I had heartburn....(um...yes! I remember telling people that if he didn't have hair I was blaming the dang heartburn for burning it all off lol)...he had hair...and a good amount too!
The after math and damage down there was definitely limited and I feel a lot better this go around as far as that goes....he did separate my pubic bone unfortunately which made it almost impossible to walk after. It felt like someone was literally pulling it down to the ground when I would try and walk. I had to drag my feet afterwards....UGH...sooooo bad. NEVER AGAIN...haha...for real though.... TOTALLY WORTH IT....
SOOOO....back to the top here....HAPPY LATE FATHER'S DAY Jason... I never did get to tell the world on Father's Day how lucky I am to have you! Thanks for being my support through everything (except the epidural LOL)...we did it...we now have 2 adorable children and we are both still alive! lol. You are such a hard worker and without you we wouldn't be where we are today. I love you more than words can say...I love your freaking face!
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